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The path of Self Destruction

Friday, June 04, 2010

I was never a very religious person.
I wasn't the zealous, enthusiastic Christian and I only did the minimal like going to church.

However, today when the bf said he did not want to go to church again because he simply doesn't care what lies ahead after life was extremely disturbing, hurting, in fact.

He said he just wanted to focus on this life, and not afterlife because it wasn't important. I understood perfectly what he meant, because I was at some point of my life, having the same thoughts. I stopped going to church, I didn't want to me a Christian because I thought, "Life is great! I'm young and I can do anything I want. I love being me. Who cares about God? Religion? Church? Afterlife??? I don't give a heck and I just want to live the moment right here, live now."
Besides, I'm definitely not going to drop dead tomorrow.

I tried to probe and find out his underlying reasons, was it because he didn't believe the existence of God? Did he doubt the truth in the Bible? Apparently not, he told he believed everything.

"The Bible tells us that if you are not a Christian, well, you go to Hell after you die. Are you aware of that? Do you think it's true?"

"Yes I think it's true."

"Do you know what's hell?" I ask him incredously.

"What's hell?" he asks snidely. I can hear him rolling his eyes.

"It's a place where you will suffer, be tortured, everlastingly, with no end. Don't you care?"

"No" his voice is devoid of emotion. I feel as though I don't know him. I've never felt so ... alien to him.

"How can you not care? Why do you want to suffer when you know it? It would be like walking into a dead end. Why walk in knowing the consequence???"

Time after time, he tells me flatly, "I just don't care. I'm already dead, it doesn't matter anymore. That's what I think."

I don't understand why he thinks he way he thinks. I feel extremely heartbroken to see him insist that self-destruction is his choice.

good night, world.

Kelly G
12:09 AM
Y Y Y

Boss from Hell

Monday, March 15, 2010

" I didn't request for the changes, she did. I'm not going to pay. "

- Boss from hell on why he shouldn't have to pay after utilizing creative service

Kelly G
11:26 PM
Y Y Y

G'bye 2009

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Looking back at 2009, I've had an extremely unbalanced life.

I wish I had more time for myself, more time for Ken, more time with friends and family, more time to live.

What am I doing?

Of course the time must have went somewhere, some areas did receive loads of attention, although it makes me wonder if it's worthwhile. Is time pumped there actually worthwhile? Those moments when I could have spent with the people I love.

Nope, I can't go back and use the time elsewhere. Too late.

It's starting to dawn on me it's all gone.

And how I shop aimlessly everyday, trying to fill up the great feeling of emptiness I feel. Trying to inject some life which I lack. And it's all in vain... because it just gives me a second of excitement and that's about it.

Or maybe it's just the Monday blues creeping into me.

Excuse me while I browse the eye-shadow section at drugstore.com now.

Kelly G
10:46 PM
Y Y Y

I forgot how young I was.

Sunday, September 06, 2009

Met up with Eve, Syaz and Alex to catch the Thai Bazaar.. we had beef soup, phad thai and mango sticky rice. It was really warm in there, but I really liked it. I forgot how it felt like to be 22, to meet my friends and laugh at goofy jokes. I forgot how it felt like to share food with people you love and just enjoy the company.

We walked to Far East Plaza after the fair while Alex had pontian noodles at graffiti cafe and we shared shaved ice! Surrounding us were many young people.. and gazing at them made me feel very old, but looking closely, I was in fact, pretty much the same age as them, just 1 or 2 years older. And it suddenly dawned on me that I was indeed young, even though my heart felt at least 10 years older. I just feel older than I am... and I forgot what it was like to enjoy my youth.

I forgot the joy of having a life out of the office.

These days... mondays to fridays I'm at work from 9 to 9. What other life can possibly exist?

Scribbling on the tables at graffiti cafe made me miss secondary school where everyone wrote crap on their desks...

and i wrote... Michael Jackson Lives Forever.

KEL EVE ALEX SYAZ.

my youth is fleeing.

Labels: life, youth

Kelly G
10:30 PM
Y Y Y

Beauty Junkie

Can't resist beauty products!! Especially colors! They wonders they do in mere seconds. Aaah.. just what I needed.

I bought Fasio's latest eye color in br2... it stays so uber well without melting all day despite my oily lids. I'm sold! And if u layer on the dark accent colors it gives a very intense, dark chocolate smoky eyes...

For day, work-friendly eye make-up, there's a neutral base that can work to perk up dull, tired eyes.. like mine... tired and devoid of soul, passion and energy... But with a little color and voila! I look decently human.

I've always wanted to buy benefit's blushers as well... but I really think it's insane to pay $45 for a tiny pot of blush in a cardboard packaging! Sorry, I'm not quite the high-end make-up type... I prefer drugstores for the pocket-friendly price, and since I'm so fickle it's really pointless spending a bomb on make-up I use for a couple of times....

so when I chanced upon Coralista & Benetint at only $26 and $6 each, I couldn't resist! I got it at the push-cart though... they said they brought it in from korea so it's at a really good rate. I hope it doesn't give me a massive break-out.

You know what's the best thing I love about make-up?

It makes me feel good instantly... unlike skincare, you have to be religiously-disciplined to get great, flawless skin, not to mention, great, flawless DNA as well.

Which I happen not to own either characteristic, so, I'll fake it.

Labels: Beauty, benefit, fasio, makeup

Kelly G
10:07 PM
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Gone too Soon

Monday, June 29, 2009

Matt 16:26

For what is a man profited, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul? or what shall a man give in exchange for his soul?

The music prodigy.

A legend.

The King of Pop.

He gave his all to the world for music.

Sacrificed his youth, his life and his mind.

He was a sad, lonely man.

Indeed, he gained the whole world and lost his soul. Lost himself.

His departure, I hope is a release for him.

Michael Jackson 1958-2009

Kelly G
10:11 PM
Y Y Y

Motion of Life

Sunday, June 07, 2009

You know how I love to write about life..

Just a 2 days ago I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown. Eve is right in her post, that I have a knack for getting jobs that have high level of stress. 48 hours before the event and so many stuff were not confirmed. I was crazy-obsessed that it was my fault and I spent the night pouring over the issue in my head and worrying. I woke up in cold sweat the next morning feeling my heavy heart.

Conclusion? Not my fault to begin with. Issue resolved too.

On a side note, I was amazed at how serious miscommunication was, and how bad it could get.

Alpha & Beta told No.9 about project. Me, told No. 9 about project again. No. 9 did something that all Alpha, Beta & me did not mean. Totally different. GEEZ.

And boy, did it cause everyone lots of tense, uptight and stressed hours.

--Next time when you tell anyone anything, make them repeat it to you in detail and pen it down in a document and make sure all corners are covered. If it's important, of course.

Thank God i'm a lively 22-year old who can take such adrenaline-pumped lifestyle. Really, if I were 52 and facing such crisis on a regular basis... God knows how long I can last.

Anyway, when I realized with relief that all issues were not my fault, it sudden dawned on me how much time, energy and thoughts I put into worrying.

It made me exhausted, it made me lose sleep and it made me get a cold! (it's proven that when you're stressed you fall sick real fast) More importantly, it made me sulk through my Saturday! I must have been real dull to be with then, poor friends and bf who were with me.

Well, here's the thing - problems, stress, conflicts, crap, challenges (whatever you call them): these are what makes life, life. Sometimes when shit comes along, it's important to realize that it's perfectly normal for it to be here again.

And accept it.

Accept the worst fate it could possibly bring you. Perhaps I could lose my job, perhaps the boss would think I'm retarded, perhaps none of what I imagined came true!

When you have accepted it, you'll realize it's not so bad. So what if I lose my job? Why, I'll get a new one. So what if the boss thinks I'm retarded? I'll prove him wrong in due time.

Ken is right, "Kelly, you take life too seriously."

In my blinded-hectic lifestyle, I forgot what life was all about.

I forgot how to enjoy life.

Remember just 1 item on your To-Do list today: Enjoy life!

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Kelly G
10:39 PM
Y Y Y

day

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

sometimes the daily grind does take a toll on me.
i try to keep my sanity by reading some little tips, from Richard Carlson's book, Don't Sweat the Small Stuff.

1. Forgive yourself, you're only human! (then i start humming Jason Mraz's Only Human)

2. Make peace with chaos. Chaos is the law of nature.

3. Stress is self-induced. How true!

4. Shit happens. Deal with it.

5. Live the day as if it were your last, it might be. Corny old one, but i still see lots of relevance in it.

6. Life is too short to take it too seriously.

7. When you die, your To-Do list will still be brimming.

8. Imagine yourself at your own funeral. How will people remember you? She was always too busy for me. I hardly saw her.

9. Will this matter a year from now?

10. Treasure yourself!

Kelly G
12:25 AM
Y Y Y

Saturdays

Saturday, April 11, 2009

I love rainy saturdays and how you can sit somewhere cosy sipping on a cup of coffee with someone you love. Munching on chicken wings and just talking - such are the simple pleasures of life that are so precious.

Not having a care in the world and enjoying the moment.

Friday is the my favourite of the week. Friday is when it's time to end a hectic work week and it's time to finish up crap and embrace Saturday.

I had a fantastic good friday with Alex, Eve and Syaz at Tampines....

Uniqlo was crazy... i thought for a moment that they were giving away tees. Eve and I joined the crazy queue anyway.

Eve was the highlight of our shopping trip, really. She became eve the talking mannequin.. just like in shopaholics. It's crazy. All thanks to her, we had loads of laughter and i spent quite a bit. Sighs.. the mannequin is soooo convincing. I bought a floral artsy-fartsy tote bag! A dress-tee...

and! Finally saw Syaz... haven't seen him in a million years. So glad i met them.

i heart long weekends.

Kelly G
11:57 PM
Y Y Y

Count your dead skins (& blackheads)

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Mask White is the very first item I tried in KOSE's line of products.

I recall my bf's mom was a huge fan of KOSE's products and she bought me a tube of Mask White some 2 years ago and suggested I try it. (Maybe she could spot some gunk in my skin..)

It was delight at first use as I revelled in counting the impurities the peel-off mask removed. I would stand under the light and scrutinize every morsel of oil-plug and dead skin cells alike and announce truimphantly "LOOK! Look at all that crap in my skin that's exiled!". I would feel a strange sense of satisfaction is seeing the gunk everytime.

Subsequently my bf's interest was roused from my clearer skin, particularly my nose. He kept asking why my nose had lesser blackheads and what-nots. I tried to keep mum about my beauty secret but i guess he found it when he dug into my beauty closet and spotted Mask White. Darn, I thought.

Anyway, ken's concern was largely his nose cos it was ridden with blackheads. He tried it too and said it worked for him! Now he' s such a vainpot and is always fighting to use it. =x Who said Singaporean guys do not take care of their skin?? They do, though secretly i suppose. Heh.

TIPS! :

I like to give my face a quick steam before applying the mask. I find that the mask adheres better as my pores open up - so the mask goes skin deep! Watch as MORE impurities get removed

If you are afraid of that painful sensation of peeling the mask (which i simply enjoy) - try applying a light layer of sekkisei emulsion - this helps to reduce the ouch when you rip off the mask.

Over time, you will find that the peel-off mask has less impurities gradually. Why's that? I asked KOSE's sales advisors and they enlightened me saying it's due to the fact that your skin is more clarified now because you have been using the mask. Leads to cleaner skin and reduced impurities!

So catch us enjoying our Mask White - I have a photo in Most Loving Couple too!

Voters stand to win prizes too. So click away... whee!

Labels: Beauty, Blackheads, KOSE, Mask

Kelly G
12:47 PM
Y Y Y

beauty products

Friday, December 05, 2008

I using the Cosme Decorte Revitalising Mask now.. hmm no talking or i risk wrinkles!
Cosme Decorte is a range of extremely premium range of skincare, very rich and very luxurious line. One of their highly coveted creams cost up to $1000. But it's very, very good.
I feel my skin looks a bit brighter and the texture feels pretty good after i removed the mask! Anyway, products don't work in 1 minutes - no instant fix to beauty, lazy bum. Consistent and constant. Let's see how my skin looks after repeated use!

And if you're looking for a make-up remover, do not try L'Oreal's Derma-Expertise Cleansing Milk Make-Up Remover. I just discovered my Fasio eye-shadow sitting on my eye bags... and i am supposed to have 'removed make-up thoroughly and gently'.

ooh and i just bought skin79 Dream Girls Beblesh Cream for $26! What a pleasant surprise to find a brown bag and open to a luxuriously purple box.. I can't wait to try it.

Kelly G
11:02 PM
Y Y Y

21st

When I was young, I used to imagine what my 18th birthday bash would be like and what my 21st bash would be like. I would later realise I was simply too lazy to organise a party for 50 people to come to my place and have - I have to get them to rsvp, I have to cater food, prepare some deco, think of games and activities to keep my friends entertained, filled and happy. They would most likely mess it up and leave me clean up after it was all over. Not that they're messy people. I mean, I would! I wouldn't go to a party and promptly keep my plate after I'm done. I'd leave it on some inconspicuous side table and sneak away.

So how did mine go? Well, my 18th is a long forgotten. Honest. I have absolutely no recollection what on earth happened. At least I can recall my 21st, since I just turned 21 this November.

It was a simple, hassle-free affair. I told Ken to plan everything and let me sit back and enjoy. and, I liked it.

He came to my place empty-handed and sat there waiting while I got ready for our date.. then sis went, "psssssssst. open that carrier on the desk....." "WHAT CARRIER!!? Go away lah." she continued pssst-ing at me so I opened it and to my DELIGHT it was a lovely green box with a big white ribbon.. and on the middle of the box was printed in white - kate spade new york.

OOOOOOOOOOOH my heart went. But i maintained a calm composure as I carefully undid the white bow and open the box to find a gorgeous, gorgeous purse.

how did you know i wanted a wallet? (if you didn't catch my hint you must be a moron) and I gleefully emptied the contents of my old wallet into this new baby...

then he brought me to take a ride at the singapore flyer. cam-whored a bit.. quite a bit actually and went to meet shilin, sok hong and edwin... and shilin's mom for dinner... rather brief too, cos shilin's mom was in a hurry.

they quickly passed me an agnes b rose locket and they soon left.

What does 21 mean to me? 21 means nothing much to me now that I think about it. It's just another phase of life I suppose.

Kelly G
10:29 PM
Y Y Y

A quick get-away to Genting

Sunday, October 26, 2008

I'm leaving for Genting early tomorrow morning.
Sigh, I sure miss Ken already.

Perhaps Woodlands, Singapore is a good get-away on its own.

It's hard to say goodbye.

I recall the last time he sent me off before I left for Taiwan, his eyes were a little too wet as waved at me.

Wednesday and I'll be home.

I told him to pretend I'm mugging for a final exam so I'm too busy to meet him, then he'll feel i'm nearer and won't miss me.

bye..

Kelly G
10:02 PM
Y Y Y

Hello

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

My it's been absolutely long.

If not, everything else has been nice and good..

a friend was just sharing her plan to get married in 5 years..well, that's good. she'll be 25, i plan to get married somewhere there too.

but when she said, "I'd rather shop less and buy unnecessary things. And save up for my marriage." she kept a very, very, serious look on her face.

the horrors of saving for something so ... vague and far away, so serious. and expensive.
"But you're only 21!" i squeal.

"yeah. I don't mind."

i mind. i don't plan to fork out a single cent for my marriage. period.

like mom said, "If he's broke, don't bother looking for a girlfriend."

since when did life get so serious?

Kelly G
9:26 PM
Y Y Y

Sunday, March 30, 2008

I decided to blog cos it looks so obsolete and the last entry was 3 months ago.

What's happening recently

- got a new job
- became busy
- has kpi 's and sales targets .. the horrors
- planning a holiday to bkk ( 6 months from now)
- met friends
- went to a crazy body shop sale and left with a broken shoe and empty bags
- doing cardio weekly

Kelly G
12:55 PM
Y Y Y

R & R

Sunday, January 13, 2008

Since I started working at JCDecaux, I've been feeling so exhausted every night.

I fall into a deep slumber every day at 11pm, after chatting with Mickey. I wake up at 6.45 (initially), snoozed to 7am, and finally.. I really wake up at 715 am.

Maybe it's cos we start at 8.45 am, and perhaps it due to the super long walk from City Hall MRT to Suntec Tower 3 - that's the tower furthest from all the action, where Carrefour is. I take about 20 mins to walk from City Hall MRT to my office. That's in my 'shit-i'm-late-for-work-mode' speed. Can you imagine?!

Plus, every Monday we have a Sales Meeting where late-comers have to fork out (gasp) $50 to the Sports Day fund. (We have a monthly Sports Day, we went kayaking this month. My arms.....) Die die also cannot be late on Monday. So i have to wake up at 645am

AND... CLASS STARTS TOMORROW. So my day starts at 7 am and ends at 12am now. I can just imagine how absolutely deadbeat I'm gonna be. Makes me tired just at the mere thought.

TIRED TIRED TIRED. I wonder how i made i through my first semester. With my eyes closed I think.

At least I have my weekends to look forward to! Last weekend, Mickey and I went to Sembawang Beach for a picnic. The weather was .. cool, breezy, windy... nice.. not-scorching.. and.. raining.

That sucked.

I had planned out so many activities! I brought a kite, uno cards, ipod, frisbee... wah lau then rain.

We munched on subs by the beach and we thought they tasted particularly good with the salty breeze! Then we read the papers and hummed to tunes in my ipod (more of my humming though).

We ran off to the bus stop when it starting pouring. and headed for coffee.

Rainy but fun.

i like!

Kelly G
5:02 PM
Y Y Y

Alvin & the Chipmunks

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

I've listening to the Alvin and the Chipmunks' The Christmas Song for at least 20 times. It's quite addictive.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qmZtDb3ClZo&NR=1

judge for yourself!

I love their lyrics - it's tickling me!

Xmas Xmas time is near

Time for toys and times for cheer...

Want a plane that loops the loop..

Me, I want a hoola hoop...

Want a plane that loops the loop..

I still want a hoola hoop....

The thought of a little critter swinging a hoola hoop is cracking me up.

Watching the movie next week with Eve & YT! :D

Kelly G
1:30 PM
Y Y Y

iPod Touch

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

I was never a fan of apple - I hate how they try to squash and stamp out Creative. But Creative isn't performing well either.

Brand preference aside, I got an iPod Touch! Many thanks to the boyfriend for his sweet generousity.

He got it free from a Singnet promotion, plus some taka vouchers... all mine! YAY!

iPod touch is a cool techno gadget. Crisp screen resolution, lovely colours and fun to touch. It's really a variation of the iPhone, and falls short of expectations, slightly.

After all, I can upload pictures, videos, games and of course music. Now, the camera would really be a good touch.

Kelly G
4:06 PM
Y Y Y

Reminiscence

Our first picture together at Swensens.. Some two years ago.

Ken and I have been dating for about two years.. had our shares of ups and downs throughout. We were just reminiscing of the early stage of our relationship last night.... "So, what attracted me to you?" I asked him. And he replied my cute looks (???) and my caring heart. "How could you read my heart and tell it's caring in what, two dates? " He claimed he just could.

Our phone session later developed into a ego-stroking session, where out of curiosity I starting asking him about his favourite body part and his facial features. To start the ball rolling, I said I liked his broad shoulders and strong arms, and the veins that popped on the surface of his tanned skin. He hates his veins though. He agreed his shoulders were his favourite.

To my surprise he said he liked my eyes, "Even tho they are uneven and one is single-lidded? I've been wanting to do cosmetic surgery on them." and he said he thought that made them look special. Getting someone to stroke your ego sometime does make you have a different perspective of yourself!

Kelly G
3:29 PM
Y Y Y

Dreams of Celebs

Sunday, December 16, 2007

blogger just announced that it couldnt process my entry! sheesh!

I've been dreaming of celebs recently..

First I dreamt of Raymond Lam - I remember feeling very contented as I woke up, and remembered seeing him.

HE WAS SO DARN CUTE! Now why didn't I just lunge at him and kiss him silly?! It was just a dream anyway. oh well...

Then I saw Bosco Wong - tho it's been quite a regular in my dreams..

Not looking like that! But just as hot. :)))))))))

Then Moses Chan.

I suspect it's an overdose of TVB dramas - and they all appeared in Heart of Greed! That must be why... Heart of Greed is about a rich family.. and how they fall out because of money. Moses plays a happy go lucky dude who supports his family even though he isn't really their biological son.

I read from Laurier ad page, that when you dream of celebs it's cos you think you're on par as them and have an ambitious mind.

HMM! Well, I dream of them cos they're plain hot and endearing. :)

Sweet Dreams!

Kelly G
12:40 PM
Y Y Y

7 days Taiwan

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Other than its political strifes and corrupt government officials, Taiwan is an ideal place to live in. The people are extremely polite and friendly, and I might say, cute! It's the way they speak that can make hokkien sound so demure.

Day 1: Hsin Bei Tou Hot Spring , Taipei

Kinda like a mountain, Bei Tou is the place to go for hot spring baths in the chilly weather. I liked how laid back the town was. Cafes by the sidewalks... running hot springs by the other side walk with steam emerging from the waters. The weather is about 20 degrees celsius and it's usually drizzling here.

Day 2: Taipei

We took a trip on our own around Taipei - it's pretty simple to get around, they have MRTs all over Taipei, the rest of Taiwan's MRT is currently under construction, estimated to take about 6 years to completion. We went to Danshui St - and were surprised to find how all the scooters and motorcycles travelled in the same street with all the shops and where all the pedestrians were. Their presence made the air really polluted though. Everyone in TP seems to own a scooter btw, and parents just carry their infants in one arm and the other driving. Amazing.

Bought some 6 boxes of Sun Biscuits and tried Tie Dan ( Metal Egg), which tasted like our tea leave eggs.

Went to Shihlin Night Market - it's way bigger than Sg's Bugis... It's really happening, even on a Monday night. Had Teppanyaki for dinner, pretty economical and good for a night market.

Day 3

Reunited with the tour guide - he brought us to Jiu Fen, another mountaineous area which rains non-stop for 340 days a year. Should have bought their brollies which were a mere 40 TWD!! That's SGD 2. DAMN!! Pretty, and quality ones.

And I can't recall where exactly we went. But, I can safely say we travelled to the whole of Taiwan. Welcome 2 Taiwan has worked its magic on us.

Taken at a National Park if i recall correctly..

The famous 'change-shift' march.

Cute soldiers march and just to change their shift while tourists like me snap snap and away as though they're an exhibits. Poor dudes.

Taiwan has a generous choice of beverages to guzzle on - just look at that stretch!

Kelly G
2:49 PM
Y Y Y

Friday, October 19, 2007

To the exclusive :

i hope you're not expecting some exciting content here, because there really isn't.
I'm just paranoid about cyber stalkers :)
in fact, i hardly update it anymore!
But I'll try. hehe

Love,
Kelly

Kelly G
2:54 PM
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S'long

Monday, October 01, 2007

Another period of absence since my last entry. This time, I've privatised my blog... After hearing about cyberspace harassment, I'm getting a little worried. Never know which nut might stumble upon my blog. photobucket pictures are private too.. next up is my friendster account. Will be deleting the account soon. i should.

Kelly G
3:19 PM
Y Y Y

Work sucks

Saturday, August 04, 2007

Hey I've said that before right? That work sucks.
Oh yeah it does. I was contemplating a resignation, then the work started to tone down, so I thought I could possibly handle work and school.

Not until yesterday when my boss ever so gently taichi-ed a sales account to me. (I am a Promotions Coordinator btw) Over the phone somemore. As I was told then, I would be assisting him in the project, not take over the project on my own. I asked him for his opinion for a decision, and he bounced the question back at me, adding, ' But you're the project manager what. You should know what's best.'

'I AM?! SINCE WHEN?!' I was stupefied. Yeah I felt quite stupid too. 'Quick, tell him he's mad. NOOO!' Instead I went uh-huh, uh-huh, uh-huh. And he went yakking as though this fact was established eons ago.

AND THEN HE ADDED A SARCASTIC REMARK - 'If you have any sob stories, you can tell me.'
What the ....

I hung up feeling utterly..... dumb. Dumb, dumb, employee I am.
I thought about resigning but I realised that this would be one good addition to my resume. 'Project manager for major account!' wowza sounds good.

In that case, I guess I shall endure.

Sigh.

Kelly G
12:18 PM
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SANITY!

Friday, August 03, 2007

WORK SUCKS.

SAVE MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Kelly G
11:35 PM
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Termination

Saturday, June 30, 2007

We were a small, close-knit group then , 3 girls - Me, Ruifen & JiaYu

One day Ruifen started complaining about JiaYu to me, that JiaYu did something to offend, annoy RuiFen.

'I don't want to friend her anymore.' RuiFen told me, 'Or else,' Her glare is threatening.

I was 9 then, Primary school kiddy. Subsequently, RuiFen decided not to 'friend' me too because I paired up with JiaYu for one of our classes. RuiFen wrote me an angry letter - scrawling all over with a red marker - I HATE YOU AND JIAYU FOREVER.

While I wasn't exactly sure who's fault it was more, and I don't want to play God and make a judgement, I decided to take a neutral stand. Unfortunately, RuiFen took neutral as taking the other side. It left me speechless.

Years later I looked back and realised how silly we were then. If we had been more forgiving of each other, hey, we could still meet up for coffee now.

History decided to repeat itself once more, and this time, I am no longer 9, but 20.
Being part of the Gen Y, we are, of course, the IT-savvy.
The angry letter came in a form of an sms. It left me speechless again.
I did correspond though, I mentioned that I had was entitled to choosing who I wanted to be friends with, which is true, my parents, my boyfriend have no say in my choice of friends, what more others? You may influence me, but not stop me. I do apologise though, for using the word 'choose' because that probably led to the other party thinking that I chose someone else over her.

My stand is simple, it is neutral and I don't wish to take sides.

Who am I to say who was really in the wrong? I wasn't there to witness the entire process, I can't say. I can't judge. I'm in no position to declare who's the sinner. I apologise again, that yes, I did sprout nonsense and make groudless judgements of people and situations I shouldn't have. I should have kept quiet. But in my eagerness to make someone feel better about it, I said many, many, wrong things. I should have thought hard and see if whatever I was gonna say would have an impact on me in near future. I tried to comfort her so hard, because I knew she was having a terrible time tiding thru the crisis. I wanted to help her ease through the difficult times. I wanted her to smile and love life once again. I'm sorry, but in my hastiness, I blabbed a lot. There's no taking back of blab, unfortunately. The Chinese have a saying 'Speak more and you err more' - sometimes it is a good idea to shut that trap.

Maxine, I do not want to take sides. Like you, I value friendship, I need friends to get me by. I know you're hurt, upset, and I can understand why. One of the issues that went through my mind was that our friendship with Khai would be very badly damaged. I loved spending time with both of you (when all was well) , and I hoped secretly that perhaps one day, you would live and forgive. Why can't friendship be repaired? If a love relationship can be repaired, so can friendship. I'm definitely not taking sides, if that's what you're thinking again. But if you don't want to ever mend it, sure, it's your choice. But I think differently, therefore my actions show.
If you think Firewire is not going to be affected and involved, I can tell you surely, you're wrong. So can everyone else speak to me? Are you going to terminate their friendship too because they betrayed you by speaking to me? When all of us are present, it will be awkward, well, for everyone benefit, I would try to stay out of mass Firewire outings. I will miss seeing everyone all at once. It is such a warm, comforting feeling when I'm surrounded by them.

It seems to me that you're having an huge reaction that isn't necessary. But that's my opinion. Maybe it's necessary that you never see or speak to me again. I would recommend that you reconsider, but if you insist, I wouldn't stop you. Your choice.

To Firewire, I miss all of you! I'm sorry that this happened, and I suppose I'll be seeing less of you peeps... But we can still meet.. er.. on our own. Won't be joining you guys for graduation lunch at the yummy botak jones... Do have fun though! Do they deliver? I want the fat sausage please!
Yes Syaz, Birdy's family is healthy, mickey and I are happy, work is exhausting and I've hardly got time for sleep! (: Thanks for asking though. I'm glad. Oh and I just bought a laptop.. and... 5 more mini birdies.. heh

EEEKS! 12.28 lor!! Oh and did I tell you I love warcraft now?? hehe. Ironic!

Kelly G
11:01 PM
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Pictures please -

Sunday, June 03, 2007

Stuffing ourselves silly! Mudpies are luv!

I'm bringing sexy back, yeah.

it's aho and me

ActMedia Colleagues and I attempt to squeeze into a shot

eeks! We're camera shy! Go away,kelly!

Let's get Twitty!

Alex, Me, Mr Reserved and Ting Ting at Sakura

HOHUM.

Kelly G
5:56 PM
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i love weekends

Sunday, April 29, 2007

I absolutely look forward to weekends. Especially Fridays - Met Eve and Ting for dinner followed by midnight shopping in town. Yes, the comfortable feeling of spending time and laughter with good girlfriends. :)

Not to mention $$ spending too, I bought a white tote, and a pair of killer satin heels.

Well yes, the looks can kill kinda kill - I almost died tottering around in Bugis on Saturday when I went for coffee and dinner with boyfriend. Fortunately, I have him to cling on for dear life when I felt this... blister eating me inside out.

At TCC : Coffee, tea or...

Me? ><>

Here we have more regular pictures

of smiley couples..

Oops! Caught the bobo in action! AH HA PAYBACK TIME! HEH!!

Okay lah! Don't say I bully you. There, a flattering side profile, that shows off your funky hairdo.

I have no idea what caption to give this picture. Hmm.

A silly pen we bought at Bugis will make my day a brighter one at the office! :D

We had Kway Chap ( which is well, flat squarish noodles with pig innards - intestines, stomach.. ) I know it sounds horribly gross, but hey, it's one of the the really good chinese food around. Look at the queue!

All for $4 bucks - feeding the two of us fairly well.

Kelly G
3:45 PM
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BOSCO WONG IS HOT SAYS KELLY G

Monday, April 16, 2007

Being stuck in a geographically tiny country, Singapore, it's not surprising that TV programmes we catch are very limited too.

Thank Starhub for cable, so I have Ch 55, and can watch endless Hong Kong dramas.. especially when they feature cutie Bosco Wong!! *cue shrill cries*

Watch him in Lethal Weapons of Love & Passion, Ch 55 8pm!

Bosco Wong is a rather new actor to hit the hong kong drama screens. But boy, is he good! He has this endearingly comical face when he has to, and when it calls for some manly vibes, he oozes them as well. Especially in this armour!!!

*CUES MORE SHRILLY SCREAMS*

wokay!! going to get my shower before Bosco hits MY screen!

Kelly G
7:31 PM
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Girly Day Out

I love a day out with the girls.

Even if they just appear in shorts and flip flops.. unwashed hair... heh, you get the picture.

HAHA!

Still, it was good just sitting at a fast-food joint, ranting, talking and gossiping, about work, about classmates, about how broke we were, about their latest trip to Taiwan, about the boyfriend..

Isn't it amazing how we never seem to have a short of topics to talk about??

lalala!!

Kelly G
2:28 PM
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Mickey saves the day!

Monday, April 02, 2007

Breezy Sunday morning it was, with a passing rain. Mickey and I met at MacDonald’s and we enjoyed a leisurely breakfast together. It was great to see each other on a cool weekend morning, just having breakfast and soaking up each other’s company. Life is great when you realize gleefully that you will not have Monday blues!! Okay, at least for the coming Monday.

We proceeded to take a walk at Causeway Point hand-in-hand; we walked towards an escalator and witnessed how an old lady was trying to get on the quick-moving steps with the aid of her friend, but unfortunately she lost balance and had her right leg about 3 steps beneath!! She flailed her arms wildly in the air attempting to grab hold of the railing on her right, only to realise her arm was injured and bandaged. Her weak arms hit against the moving escalator and we watched her grimace in pain.

‘EEKS!! QUICK GO GO GO!!!’ I screeched and shoved Mickey up the escalator instinctively.

He ran up the steps and paused for one second, analyzing the situation; he swiftly went up the steps and caught hold of the lady in distress. I watched with bated breath as Mickey counted ‘One, two, three.’ steadily and lifted her up so that both her legs were on one step. Next was the most terrifying scene, I was so frightened the old lady would not be able to make it out of the escalator exit; trip and get her leg stuck in the monstrous escalator. I gaped at the scene unfolding before me, ‘One.. two.. three..’ he counted and with sheer grace and strength, he lifted her up and out of the hazardous machine.

It was a glorious moment – the old lady thanked Mickey profusely and patted him on the shoulder. It was absolutely overwhelming, the picture before me was a moment of relief, a moment of courage, a moment of kindness, a moment of truth, and I felt my heart soar with warmth and tears welling up. It was almost like a mother witnessing her son receiving his doctorate certificate, I was so proud of my baby, and so happy for him.

I smiled at him and took his hand as we left. He looked slightly shaken and his eyes were red and welled up with tears. ‘What’s wrong?? Are you okay??’ He turned around and we watched the old lady hobble away.

‘She’s so pitiful! She’s already injured and almost got hurt again,’ his voice almost a whimper. ‘She’s okay now…’ I comfort my poor boy and pull his face towards me, rewarding him with a good, long kiss on his cheek. I squeeze his hand supportively and we go on our day and way.

I always thought Mickey was a great dude to come my way, now I know I’m really lucky to have met him!

Kelly G
11:23 PM
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10 (working) days till the end of IPP

Friday, March 16, 2007

Alas! Ten working days later I will officially be a fresh graduate, freshly baked out of NYP.

Although I look forward to another new phase of life, I'll still miss the team back at MDA.
Will miss the lovely people and my cube.

We've been interning six whole months! Give yourselves a pat on back for the good work!

Kelly G
3:03 PM
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Surviving Chinese New Year

Monday, February 19, 2007

Alright, so I'm a little exaggerated. Surviving.
I had fun with my young cousins, play with them while I still can, or they won't be as fun when they reach adolescence. =[

Here are some of the cuties :

Chloe,6, with her widest grin and Sydney,13, at the beginning of her teenage years, sitting at the steps.

Sydney, Zoe, Chloe and Me make an attempt to squeeze into a shot.

Zoe with pursed lips, her sister Chloe and I.
My sister Sydney, Mommy and Chloe (looking quite patronising here)

Cosy shot of Sydney, Mom and Me. (shucks my face looks wider!=O)

Good group shot!

More visiting on my dad's side later :)

Labels: Lunar Chinese New Year

Kelly G
1:25 PM
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2nd Valentine's Day

Sunday, February 18, 2007

I was trying to recall what me and mickey did last Valentine's day

Couldn't no matter how hard I tried. Then he refreshed my memory : We had lunch at Jack's Place. Oh... figures.. no wonder I had such a vague and non existent memory of it.

Valentine's Day this year, was well, nothing big; we agreed to have dinner at the food court at CWP instead of fighting in the queues at all the restaurants. (Swensons was still packed when we went home).

It was a rather small and sweet affair, nonetheless.

He bought me a tiny bouquet of flowers (which i threatened him into buying =x)

and Godiva chocolates!! Which i totally didn't expect to receive.

Unfortunately, I am still down with a very sore throat, and will not be able to taste the wonderfully tempting Godiva chocolates sitting in my refrigerator.

Thanks hun :)Mommy: "Are you evolving into each other or something??!"

One of those uncannily similar pictures of us.

... Not looking forward to CNY visitation later. My only source of motivation are the red packets.

YAWN. I am going to visit my relatives in jeans and flip flops!! hohum

Labels: chocolates, flowers, Godiva, Valentine's Day

Kelly G
3:54 PM
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