Identity
Sunday, January 29, 2006
I think everyone has a picture of themselves; a definition of themselves.
Like, 'I'm the type of person who doesn't buy red lipstick'
'I'm the typical guy next door'
'I'm a health freak'
'I'm a good, model teacher'
I sort of define myself as the 'typical-girl-next-door, who seeks simplicity'
Well, imagine if you didn't have a definition of yourself, you didn't categorize yourself under any type of person.
what would you do?
I think I would buy outrageous clothes I never had the courage to wear, because they aren't simple enough for me.
I would use bright red/fuchsia lipstick because I always thought it was unnatural looking and not suitable for a simple girl next door like me.
I would walk outta the house without any make-up on my face at all because my skin is flawful but I don't care how the world thinks of me.
I take that back!
I have yet to muster the courage to walk outta the house bare-faced. LOL in future yes. .when my skin is good enough to face the world and the mirror without wringing.
I would go ahead and curse loudly because I have always catgorized myself as a polite and goody-two shoed girl.
I would go out and travel the world alone, take a long hike, because I always defined myself as the pampered girl who's got her bf to attend to her and would never venture out of SG alone lest I become anyone's prey, lest I have too much fun.
Yeah. I guess that's what I might do.
What would you do?
(Inspired by Seishii's entry)
Kelly G
11:52 PM
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Oh and he actually walked all the way back to my home from Woodlands MRT to pick up my wallet for me because feather-brained me left it under the table.
In the hot scorching sun.
I thanked him gratefully, rushing to meet him from the shaded shelter of the MRT station with a tissue, and he waved it off saying, 'It's nothing.'
Kelly G
11:01 PM
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end of sem
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
Tomorrow will be our last day of school! Well, not exactly... But, sort of... One week later I still gotta come back for exams.
And so 'coincidentally', Chinese New Year is during our study week.
HOW TO STUDY?!
Hmm.. quite a bit has happened recently.
We finished all presentations; today was the last one with Edwin Tan for Print, where I stumbled over my words stuttering 'per-per-pes-PERSPECTIVE'. GAH.
Happy Birthday to E-V-E who turns 19 today!
And Happy Belated to Khairiyah whose birthday fell on yesterday :) We hope you like what we gave you.
In fact, it was so pretty Maxine & I were reluctant to let you have it in the end!
The week before, our Team *TOOT* had a slight disagreement... But well, it's good that everything is over and peaceful now. *relief* No hard feelings I hope :)
Late last week I had a mood swing & got depressed, & attempted to break up with my boyfriend not knowing exactly why. Okay I do, but it's too embarrassing to be blogged about. Lest everyone thinks I'm mad.
But i'm not!! And it's... well.. true!
Okay!
I told him: Because the chance of us getting married is very low, therefore, I am currently wasting my time dating you because it isn't gonna work out!
Him: HUH?! Why you think so far?
Me:(feeling slightly sia-suayed) When you date someone, ultimately, you wish to marry them, don't you? If I'm just dating for the sake of dating, knowing it I'm not gonna marry him, well then, I'm wasting my youth, wasting my time, and forgoing my chance of meeting a cuter guy.
*I didn't tell him the last part tho*
Him: But if you don't try how you know?
Me: Because I'm only 19 and I'm years away from getting married. do you really think we're gonna last that long? If only I met you later.. So I should remain single until i'm 20+. *sighs wistfully
Him: (obviously defeated) You don't have faith in me
Anyway, he's right, I don't have faith in him & I think too much and I'm just freaking out because I'm having a mood swing.
The next day I met him I was already perfectly non-depressed, in fact, quite jovial.
And he was very sweet to me, picking me up from my door, buying me a really cute table-cloth skirt, in which my mother nagged looked like a table cloth and that if she bought it she would have slammed her own head on the wall and perished.
I snorted and pointed at him happily as he was the one who bought it!
Anyway, it was Maxine who later enlightened me saying something like:
'Rather than wait till you're of age, and what if you don't find the right person to marry? At least if you stay with Mickey now you still have hope!'
hmm, yes. She got me there.
And I'm terribly broke. =(
Kelly G
5:59 PM
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worry warty.
Saturday, January 21, 2006
I feel depressed and I don't know why.
Maybe it's because I don't have any food in me.
Maybe it's because I suddenly have no ICA's to do, and the worry wart in me is wondering if I forgot anything. Well, I know that there's Edwin's report to do.. but I don't have the newspaper to work on. Maybe I should go out to buy it.
But it's too late. =( darn.
Kelly G
3:00 PM
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Monday, January 16, 2006
Why my black clutch?
Because it was my Christmas present last year from Mickey.
While thinking of a name for my blog, Mickey appeared in my head and so this blog is somewhat linked to him. *snorts* Does this mean I will create a new blog when we do break up again?
=/ I hope not!
Two presentations ended today, I feel like a big load was lifted magically off my heavy laden shoulders.
I can smile without cracking my face now or twitching or something. =)
I feel very unhealthy now though.
I'm crazy over this song now:
I Love You Always Forever
Feels like
I'm standing
in a timeless dream of light mists
of pale amber rose
Feels like I'm lost in a deep cloud of heavenly scent
touching discovering you
those days of warm rains come rushing
back to me of windless summer night air secret moments shared
in the gear of the afternoon out of the stillness soft spoken words
say it again
I love you always forever
near and far closer together
everywhere I will be with you
everything I will do for you
I love you always forever
near and far closer together
everywhere I will be with you everything I will do for you
you've got the most unbelievable blue eyes
I ever seen you've got me almost melting away as we lay there under the blue sky
with pure white stars exotic sweetness a magical time
say it again
I love you always forever
near and far closer together
everywhere I will be with you everything I will do for you
I love you always forevernear and far closer together
everywhere I will be with you everything I will do for you
say you'll love love me forever never stop never whatever
near and far and always and everywhere and everything
say it again.
Kelly G
8:43 PM
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A-new
Sunday, January 15, 2006
This is my new blog.
um. why was it created?
So that not everyone has access to my blog.
Because I have an occassional unwanted reader or two...
Besides, Colours of Kelly's has too much in there, and so I thought a new start would be good.
So you have it- A brand new year and a brand new Me.
Kelly G
6:06 PM
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