You know how I love to write about life..
Just a 2 days ago I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown. Eve is right in her post, that I have a knack for getting jobs that have high level of stress. 48 hours before the event and so many stuff were not confirmed. I was crazy-obsessed that it was my fault and I spent the night pouring over the issue in my head and worrying. I woke up in cold sweat the next morning feeling my heavy heart.
Conclusion? Not my fault to begin with. Issue resolved too.
On a side note, I was amazed at how serious miscommunication was, and how bad it could get.
Alpha & Beta told No.9 about project. Me, told No. 9 about project again. No. 9 did something that all Alpha, Beta & me did not mean. Totally different. GEEZ.
And boy, did it cause everyone lots of tense, uptight and stressed hours.
--Next time when you tell anyone anything, make them repeat it to you in detail and pen it down in a document and make sure all corners are covered. If it's important, of course.
Thank God i'm a lively 22-year old who can take such adrenaline-pumped lifestyle. Really, if I were 52 and facing such crisis on a regular basis... God knows how long I can last.
Anyway, when I realized with relief that all issues were not my fault, it sudden dawned on me how much time, energy and thoughts I put into worrying.
It made me exhausted, it made me lose sleep and it made me get a cold! (it's proven that when you're stressed you fall sick real fast) More importantly, it made me sulk through my Saturday! I must have been real dull to be with then, poor friends and bf who were with me.
Well, here's the thing - problems, stress, conflicts, crap, challenges (whatever you call them): these are what makes life, life. Sometimes when shit comes along, it's important to realize that it's perfectly normal for it to be here again.
And accept it.
Accept the worst fate it could possibly bring you. Perhaps I could lose my job, perhaps the boss would think I'm retarded, perhaps none of what I imagined came true!
When you have accepted it, you'll realize it's not so bad. So what if I lose my job? Why, I'll get a new one. So what if the boss thinks I'm retarded? I'll prove him wrong in due time.
Ken is right, "Kelly, you take life too seriously."
In my blinded-hectic lifestyle, I forgot what life was all about.
I forgot how to enjoy life.
Remember just 1 item on your To-Do list today: Enjoy life!
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
